Because Tonight Will Be The Night That I Will Fall For You Over Again, Don't Make Me Change My Mind...

TODAY!!!! Was by far the funnest and most adventurest day of all.

But before I tell you any of that I MUST tell you something about a special friend I have. And I know Josh reads this so hear it goes. I'm hesitating because I know JayJay reads this and she knows Ashi-Babe...but whatever this is about proving that it's not MY game. JayJay hon...PLEASE!!!!!!! Don't tell Ashi jus cuz she's associated with Jake and Jake is associated with ALL the deaf kids, pretty please with cherries on top. Let's take this from the top.

There once was this kid named Josh. He just so happens to be deaf and I just so happen to kno sign language. So we got to hanging out one day and then I go to Jessica and proclaimed to her that I didn't even kno his name. Then I found out and we started hanging out pretty much every day since. WELL, Josh has become more than "jus a friend" but (not that I don't love you hon) I jus don't want to go out with him cuz you see, this kid is a senior which means he leaves in about 8 weeks, either to UW or Pensicola (THERE'S A BIG DIFFERENCE). I don't want to keep you from making a decision babe because you really need to decide this for yourself, understand? Apparently according to Jessica Lynn and the therapist I am forced to talk to every week, I have abandonment issues (God, that is really hard to say). Not that I have a fear of being left...just that, I don't want to get to attatched if the attatchee is going to leave anyway... so pretty much yea...i have a fear of being left (That's even harder to say than the first thing)...Blame it on my biological mother. So with this guy, possibly being across the flippin country, there is no way I'm going to go out with him, it's just not gonna happen. Sorry Mrs. Beringer. TAKE THAT JOSH (AND JESSICA)!!! IT'S NOT MY GAME!!! I JUST TOLD ALL OF 3 PEOPLE, one of which already knows but that's beside the point! PUT THAT IN YOUR JUICE BOX AND SUCK IT BABE!!

Now onward about my day. So I woke up pissed. I don't know why. I jus did. Then I proceeded to get ready and do normal everyday getting ready activities, except that I didn't have time to do my make up. THEN I went to school and it pissed me off that Ashli wasn't on the bus. I thought to myself "Bitch slept in AGAIN!!!" and then I got to school and Jessica made me French Toast :) which was wonderful until Ryan came along and at 33% of it and then I gave one to Nick and one to Kayraw and one to Supercoolnewkidlylecupcakegirl so then I only had three :( which pissed me off even more. In first period Westin tickled me so hard I cried. Mrs. Cosme jus look at us like we were strange :) After class she asked if me and Westin were going out to which I replied "OH GOD NO!", and then she said that we're always all over eachother (which we're not) and I reassured her she has nothing to worry about. Normally I would blow something like that off, but just yesterday Jessica made to comment that he likes me. I just find it very odd. ANYWAYS!!! I saw Ashli during the passing period between 1st and 2nd and she went off with a group of people to spank a monkey, leaving me all alone in ASL, and that really pissed me off, but whatever...it's her life, I'm not gonna tell her what she can and cannot do. Then in 3rd period Jessica didn't come in until passing period, which was to be expected cuz her teacher wants her in class. That didn't piss me off. 4th, 5th, and 6th was a drag.

At about 4, I met with my group at Starbucks and we discussed our video project. That was a lot funner than what I expected it to be. I bonded with Allyson so well, she's like my new BFF...me and Allyson then waited at ColdStone until Josh picked us up. It was nice having someone else in the truck with us because I didn't have to worry about him signing and driving (IT DRIVES ME INSANE HON!!!!). I'm going to youth group with her wednesday and she's gonna go with me next sunday. Then we went to his house (it's like my second home now) and I finally met his dad. I would hate to have a dad like that. It's like whatever Josh does it's not good enough. I'm sorry hon...BUT I LOVE HIS MOM!!!! She is so darling!!! Everytime I'm around her, I wanna dance. We watched TV in his room, which was different because we normally watch in the living room, but his dad was watchin a movie so he kicked us upstairs. Why does a deaf kid have a TV in his room? But then again why do deaf kids need hearing test? Idk...maybe you can answer these for me babe. We worked out again, but I was still sore. He made me bench press 40 lbs today...I HATE YOU!! and then I felt gross so I went to take a shower, there was only guy body wash and it really annoyed me until I realized he's an only child :) So I used it and it smelled really good...but then again I like the smell of guy...then I had to wash my clothes so I went nightynight while they dried. I woke up and poor Josh was passed out too, but my clothes were on the bed. HE DOESN'T SNORE!!!! :) Which is fanspankintastic cuz I HATE the sound of snoring...even if its jus a soft snore it still bugs the living crap out of me. I went downstairs and had a nice conversation with his mom about how I should really give Josh a chance, and I should tell him to go to UW, and if he doesn't like it then he could switch to Pensicola anytime he wanted. And she said it in the nicest way while we were making brownies. And I told her that I don't want to make a decision for him but she says he only listens to me now, and I said "have you BEEN in the truck with us?!?!?" freakin crazy lady, listens to me my fat ass. he won't even keep his hands on the steering wheel (I say that in the best possible way). And then I called my dad and told him I was staying at a friends house because believe it or not Josh is still sleeping...poor boy. I guess technically he's a man...him being 18 and all but that sounds weird...poor man...see? it just doesn't work. So I'm on his Mac (which is way different than my computer), sitting next to his dad who is reading over my shoulder...WHICH HAPPENS TO BE ONE OF MY BIGGEST PET PEEVES!!!! haha :) he stopped :) anyways...its almost late...I'm gonna go find some jammies and maybe try to crack my Facebook password...BROWNIES ARE DONE!!! First, I'm gonna eat brownies though :)

ILY!!!
Jessica: I'll tell you more on the floor (that rhymes I should be a rapper)
JayJay: Don't bring this up round Ash pleasey :) but I love you enough to tell you :)
Taylor: Did we have WHAP homework?
Josh: The kids still don't need to know

love you guys. youre the bestest <3
~E
HAPPY EASTER!!!! YAYY EASTER BUNNY!!

If I Die Young, Bury Me in Silence, Lay Me Down on a Bed of Roses

Jessica Lynn and Ashi-Babe already know. But as for the rest of you, here it goes. When I woke up at exactly 5:58 Friday morning, I had this terrible gut feeling. It was like that feeling I had that first night I got my fish and I dreamed that it was going to die by the time I woke up that morning (and sure enough it did and I cried for almost two hours). Then at 6:28 that morning, my dad got a call that made him jump out of bed and get ready so fast, I wasn't even half way done with my breakfast when he left. The next time I heard from him was in third period at exactly 9:52 according to my phone with a text that said "I'll update you this afternoon after school" and when I finally checked my phone in the middle of fourth period, it seemed to me that something was terribly wrong. I was unusally quiet during lunch (according to Ashli, Jake, and Ryan) but then again I guess that's kinda to be expected when you sit at a table full of deaf kids. I was fine in 6th period and our little nature walk really helped me clear my mind. But when I got home I got the news. I cried, and cried, and cried. And then I got a call from Jessica and she said that she sensed that I needed a hug. After I got off the phone with her, I went to Ashli's and cried some more. Then Josh texted me and I told him to. He was at my house in 15 minutes and he held me while I cried on him (in his car of course, everything happens in that car. Jessica knows). It's nice talking to a deaf kid because you can tell them anything and they can't hear you anyways, so you jus keep talking and talking until you can't talk no more. After a run to Starbucks (he bought this time) I went inside and blasted my music that way no one can hear me crying. And then I went to bed around 7:30. I'm pretty sure I've gained 30 pounds since yesterday (I'm a very emotional eater) and today all we talked about was funeral details.

Grandpa, you're the best grandfather that a 16 year old girl can have. Thanks for being there the last eight years. You've always said "live for today cuz you never know what you got til its gone." That is so true. I love you so much, I don't think I've told you lately. Rest in peace.

In Loving Memory of my grandpa, Jess Moultry.
June 2, 1952-April 8, 2011

And I know this much is true, baby you have become my addiction

Hola,

So I haven't been on in, like, 2 weeks and I dont even have much to say.

SPRING BREAK!!! I procrastinated with my homework but it got done (SHOCKER!!!) I'm kinda proud of myself. Then Tuesday my dad said that I could go to the office with him and then he turned around and said "Oh, I'll come back for you." He didn't come back until 8:30 that night and then he's all "Sorry hon, you can come tomorrow." MEANWHILE!!!! While he was having a fun at the office, my mom came home. KEEP IN MIND, that no one has seen or heard from her since Saturday, and she gets upset at me because when she asked me a question I SIGNED yes instead of say it. The only reason I did so was because I was watching my favorite show and she kept asking all these annoying questions. "Did the dog get walked?" "Did anyone feed the dog?" "How is the dog?" "Where is the dog?" "Where's the cat?" "Did you eat any real food today?" "Have you talked to the doctor to get your note?" blah blah blah. And she had her iPod in and it was turned up all the way, so she flippin yelled it because she couldn't hear herself, GRRR!!! So I signed yes because I didn't want to come off as giving her attitude, and she yells at me because I was disrespectful in the excution of it. Whatever. She's gone again to only God knows where and I get to spend the weekend with my favorite neighbors :)

I four and a half hours on trying to figure out how i was going to earn my graduation requirements and my AA in Business at the same time and finally i figured it out. I was so proud of myself (yet again).

Thanks to my wonderful neighbor, Charis, I now have a Starbucks app on my cellular device :) And best of all she refilled my card for me. Instead of having $2.17 I now have $22.17. I don't even have to have my card there when I make the purchase. Apparently if you just give them your phone they punch in a code or somethin and it subtracts it from the balance displayed on your phone!!! How tight is that!!! :)

Kylie (the one who ran in a tornado around Taylor Swift, JayJay and Mommy know what I'm talking about) and my brother David love playing Lego Batman :) Kylie says the cutest things like "THAT'S RIGHT!!! YOU RUN BAD GUYS" and "WHY AREN'T YOU DYING!!!" I think it's super darling :)

Anyways!!! That's all for now :) Love you guys <3